I spotted a white hair, and that made me want to write this.
I’m planning to move to San Diego with my girlfriend by the end of this year. She wants to go to school there, and I don’t mind moving to live with her.
I am doing this because I feel like I need to. My parents took care of me from when I was an itty-bitty kid. It’s time to come out of my shell and take some real responsibility for myself.
Even though the idea of moving to San Diego sounds exciting, reality is starting to kick in now.
Recently, I’ve been thinking of “what if” scenarios. What if the job I get is not enough to pay for rent? What if by then I am not even making anything from day trading? Worse, what if I am losing money?
We do have money that can cover some months of rent, but I want to use most of my money for day trading. I don’t want the rent to eat away at my funds, which makes me even more scared.
As time passes every day, every second, I become more fearful. It’s even hard to enjoy myself nowadays.
Fear creeps up slowly every day, but I like it because I need this push.
I heard this somewhere: if you are working towards who you want to be and you start to feel fear, good, that means you are going in the right direction.
Fear is the biggest push we can ever ask for, so embrace it and love it.
Instead of hiding away with pleasures or whatever else you do, use it as fuel, because it’s one of the best opportunities we can receive.